Unki shararat

उनकी  अदाओं  पे  मर  गए , उनकी  शरारत  पे  मर  गए ,
कुछ  न  कहा  उन्होंने , उनकी  नज़ाकत  पे  मर  गए ,
क़त्ल  हो  जाता  तो  कातिल  तो  कह  देते ,
मुस्कान  पे  कभी , तो  कभी  निगाहों  से  मर  गए ।


Unki adaon pe mar gaye, unki shararat pe mar gaye,
Kuch na kaha unhone, unki nazakat pe mar gaye,
Katl ho jaata to katil to keh dete,
Muskan pe kabhi to kabhi nigahon se mar gaye...

Thats when I realized

Today I complete the third month of my college life. It’s been total fun till now. Making friends, a lot of them, roaming around the city and above all having total freedom are all so wonderful. 

Yesterday was one of the most memorable days of the college. The whole afternoon was spent in celebrating the birthday party of one of the batch mates. We went to Adventure Park and had lots of fun with rides and games and a lot of clicks. The afternoon was so filled with fun and frolic that we even forgot to have our lunch.

We came back at evening by 5 pm. I was too tired to do anything so went and had a good nap of two hours. It feels good to sleep at any time of day and you can stay awake longer at nights.

8 o’clock, about whole of the college could be seen at mess or roaming around it. The number of people standing outside is much more than the number of people sitting inside which clearly says just one thing, one need to eat outside today.

I along with my friend Raj went out to try the restaurant nearby. The food was great and a vegetarian like me hardly finds food with a good taste. The day had been super awesome till now and only thing that could be better than this was a SRK movie. The latest had released two days ago so we bought two tickets for it and luckily got it in the heavy bookings for the last show. After spending an hour, window shopping at the mall we were able to spend the gap of idleness.

The movie had SRK so it couldn't have a flaw. I just loved it. It was too late to go back to the hostel so we planned to spend the night at his flat. This was going to be my fourth night out which was more than expected with just the beginning of the college. His 2 bhk flat was nearby and made me envy him so much. Many of my friends opted for living in flat/PG instead of hostel. I always preferred staying at a flat but my parent felt me to keep at hostel. I have spent a gala time at 3 of my friend’s flat and every time I get so jealous of them.

His flat was well furnished unlike my other friends and the thing I liked the most was that he had both the fridge and a TV. We took out two bottles of beer from it and had a little chat. The chat went from normal college talks to our childhood tales and our old friends. We kept on talking and suddenly he realized that it has been sunrise. Another night had been spent sleepless so I just asked him to drop me to hostel on his bike so I could get atleast a good 8 hour sleep, missing all my classes.

Its 2 p.m and I am awake now. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I could see people looking at me with not a good sight and I knew that they were jealous of my coolness. I got ready and went out to meet my gang of Raj, Rahul & Amrit. While waiting for them I overheard some of my colleagues.

They were saying me to be characterless. I could not understand why. My friends and I, were all doing the same things but only I was the only one made the character less in all of them.

That’s when I realized that I was a girl.

Rone do mujhe

दिल टूटा है फिर से मेरा,
घोंसले में था साँप का बसेरा,
हाथ आगे  बढाकर, खुद गिर गए,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।

दोस्ती भी की , निभायी भी है,
ग़मों का खज़ाना , पाया भी है,
बताऊँ भी तो अब मैं किसे,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।

मेहनत है की , कामयाबी को चूमा,
गिरकर मैं निराशा में झूमा ,
गलती थी मेरी, पता है मुझे,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।

टूटूंगा कब मैं, इसकी आजमाइस है,
भावनाओं की मेरी, देखो नुमाइश है,
सुनाएंगे मेरी तबाही के किस्से,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।

 हारूंगा एक दिन, अभी समय बाकी है,
ठंडा है खून, पर बहाव बाकी है,
इतनी आसानी से नही दूँगा जान मैं तुझे,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।

उम्मीद की किरण लौट कर आयी है,
नया है सवेरा, मिटी तन्हाई है,
लम्बा इंतज़ार था, इस ख़ुशी का मुझे,
मत रोको अब, रोने दो मुझे।